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week 7+8/15: Express yourself

Espress Yourself 1488047_10152321570279402_2000175591_nby Suzanne L. Beenackers

“What does integrity mean to you? I just want to get a list of your core values.”
Sadie Nardini, Rockstar Teacher Training (lecture 11)

A little while ago, there was an award winning Danish political series (with a murder), and “everybody” was praising it for being genius. Since I like a little suspense, and am one of the two people who depends on tv for drama instead of downloading it, I tried watching it when after long anticipation it finally aired in The Netherlands.
I tried one episode.
And halfway three I gave up and complained with my mother that this series was absolutely boring and that I couldnt t understand what the fuss was about.
“Why did you watch it?” my mother asked. “You re not interested in politics at all.”

Core Values

What I did with Borgen was the same mistake a lot of us make when picking a movie, buying a car, selecting a partner or starting some form of physical exercise for no reason other than that EVERYBODY says that Borgen is the best series of the year; that a car will provide you with a sense of freedom; your partner should be reliable and yoga will get you slim and toned.

From what I know now, and what I could have known beforehand if I had made a list of my core values; I find politics boring. And one murder is not enough to change that; 1,5 ton chunk of steel weighs you down. Even if it does drive; Dogs are reliable. I m not a dog person;
And yoga only works to the extend to which you fall in love with it.
As will any form of exercise, for that matter.

Once somebody is enthusiastic or adamant about something, we think that it is our cue to start doing the same thing. It’s not. Not unless you share the same likes and dislikes as that person, similar talents or characteristics, the same fears or the same ambitions.
And even then you re probably better off investigating inward, before you jump to action.

For 15 weeks I m working with Sadie Nardini’s Core Strength Vinyasa Yoga. Which stresses that you should not jump, just because other yogis have been doing that for decades. That you should not work towards a certain pose because wise men in India say it’s done that way. Not good enough reasons.

Here are the two most important differences between Sadie Nardini’s core strength vinyasa method, and other yoga systems:

Sadie builds the pose from the ground up, using the deep core line.

The deep core line runs from your feet to your tongue, and includes the psoas. The psoas runs from the upper back of your inner thigh bone, wraps forward over the hips, to the back behind the abdominal organs, attached to the low spine, ultimately connecting with the muscles from the diaphragm. If you’re all tensed up the psoas is the muscle that pulls your body into a fetal position. If you’re interested in the anatomy of psoas and the deep core line you can watch this (graphic dissecting body parts) video here, and study the work of Tom Myers.

The deep core line is like the energetic highway of energy through your body, and this line is designed to hold you up. But it can only do so if you activate it from the ground up. If you just pull your navel in, thinking you’re doing something with “your core” you’re probably just using your superficial body = in this case your abdominal muscles. But if you exhale pushing your feet into the floor and from there kind of zip the back of the spine up, that’s core line.

Sadie places little emphasis on expression

The foundation of the pose is your connection to the earth, firing the deep core line, which then builds up (exhaling) energy through the legs into your core and then you express/ extend the arms/ back bend a little (opening your heart). So she uses the exhale whenever you come up. And then the inhale is to kind of “fill the pose”/ extend your arms/ bend a little. The inhale is reserved for that final last bit of your movement or “doing” the pose: expressing. And you just see how far it goes.
Contrary to other lineages of yoga, Sadie is very concerned about you opening your heart (back bending) too much, and especially worried about you doing it without staying connected to your core.

Core comes before expression

So that’s the physical part of doing yoga from the core. On a mental part that Sadie translates her lessons to be weary of expressing/ giving what other people want from you. Stay in your own integrity. Are you firmly rooted, hence are you in any position to give right now? And what is at your core? And how can you ignite your core beliefs, and build up that mental energy, to a place from where you can express in your own unique way?
Instead of reacting?

In yoga and in life:
Always check your foundation first and work from your own unique values.
Don’t sacrifice what’s holding you up, don’t cut corners on what’s making you tick, and never ever mess with what’s keeping you rooted.

week 7+8: Home Practice and class

For 15 weeks I’m teaching based on classes from Sadie Nardini. This week I m using the classes we did in the first two weeks of October, and created this month’s pdf’s for home practice.
M Yoga # 5: Bad Girl  (standing pose/ solar)
M Yoga # 6: Secret    (lying and seated/ lunar) 

Music: Bad Girl

I considered using this month’s (still unused) “Good Girl” Madonna soundtrack, but after this blogpost I suspect it will be all the more powerful if I just stick with what I really want.
What’s at my core ;)
In week 7 and 8 I will work from my core and use my handmade  Madonna Bad Girl Playlist ;)

Think we match? ;)
Would you like to join my classes in Nijmegen?
You can find all info here. 
Or email me directly at s_beenackers@hotmail.com
Or check my You Tube and practice with my videos.

If you like to take the full course from Sadie herself you can buy Sadie’s Rockstar Teacher Training at Udemy or pay by donation to Sadie personally.


week 6/15: Yoga and sex, do it for pleasure not progress

1990 I'm_Breathless_Madonnaby Suzanne L. Beenackers

Count your blessings, one, two, three
I just hate keeping score
Any number is fine with me
As long as it’s more
I m Breathless (1990)

Ever since I started with yoga I ve done two distinctly different types: one that is most commonly referred to as hatha yoga, the type of yoga “anyone can do”, with little to no focus on alignment and where advanced postures are shielded from the sight of beginners, as not to scare them away. The other one is vinyasa yoga, or as it was called then power yoga or ashtanga yoga. This is an athletic and dynamic type of yoga and most likely to have a boot camp flavor to it.
As it turns out, I like the laissez faire attitude of hatha yoga, but with the energy of a vinyasa yoga class. As did more people!
Over the years power yoga lost quite a bit of following to the more friendly style vinyasa yoga. First with Shiva Rea, who was the reigning Queen of vinyasa yoga from let’s say 2000-2010, and after that a whole army of You Tube wannabees who accidentally pushed her from the throne. And everybody was okay with that. Because vinyasa yogis are friendly folk who couldn’t care less who’s on the throne as long as they’re having a good time.

Your mindset and yoga

The difference between yoga styles lies for a good part in the reason you’re doing it in the first place. Are you doing yoga because of a long term goal (could be just “to be better at yoga” or even “to become happier”) and muscling your way through it, or because you like doing yoga? If you would get nothing out of it, other than the time on your mat, would you still do it?
Over the years, I ve come to understand that I want the answer to that question to be:
Yes, I would still do yoga even if it made no difference on my physical body.
But! (there is a but) I never ever want to do yoga if I m not having fun doing it.
And it took me a long time to understand why I believed this lighthearted approach was the right one. Even though it will probably not get me any respect, nor will it make me “better at yoga”.

To illustrate why I believe yoga “should” never be done with a goal driven mindset, I will do two things: refer to the Bhagavad Gita and talk about sex. That way, I m sure either one will appeal to you.

I’m going bananas,
And I feel like my poor little mind is being devoured by piranhas,
For I’m going bananas.
I m Breathless (1990)

Bhagavad Gita: ancient scripture where God Krishna teaches Arjuna a thing or two about karma (to work, to act) and the fruits of his labor. Krishna tells Arjuna to focus on the work, the task that he has to do, and not on the (desired) outcome. Because you know what? A very funny thing happens in your mind the moment you start visualizing the outcome of your actions: you get divided. Immediately and thoroughly, your mind gets split in half: one eye focusing on the now, one on the future. Doing your work, hobby, duty because you’re expecting a pay off other than the experience of doing it, is setting yourself up for going bananas.
There lies no happiness there.
Not even if you reach the goal, or are praised for your results: the effect will be short-lived because either you will have thought of new goals by then, or have new problems that require healing.
Doing yoga because you want to cure your back pain, improve your breathing, get a good night sleep or become You Tube’s newest Shiva Rea wannabee? Even if you reach those goals, you will do so with a split mind, and it is therefor not the road to happiness.

Okay, second half: sex. Sex is the only other thing I can think of that can be practiced for as many different reasons, and by such a variety of people, as yoga. And everyone will have their own interpretation what sex should be like, what is good sex et cetera.
Now, just like yoga, in my opinion sex should never be practiced if you don’t feel like it. And I guess doing something sexual against your will or mood, is not a road anyone would recommend. From the little I know about sex therapies, couples are sometimes encouraged to have more sex by just getting together, taking an interest in each other and setting the mood. And then see what comes from there.
And that is precisely what my advice for yoga would be.

If you aspire to have a yoga practice, I invite you to get onto your yoga mat, and think of something that inspires you. Or put on a yoga video you like to watch. I want you to find your lighthearted, happy self, before you’re doing any physical yoga.
To, in a way, fall in love with your own practice.

And then trust me; the back pain, the good night sleep, and your career on You Tube, will all take care of themselves ;)

orig-21478416week 6 – The Makko-Ho stretches 

For 15 weeks I’m teaching based on classes from Sadie Nardini. This week I m using one class from Sadie’s Rockstar Teacher Training, but also a completely unrelated Japanese series called The Makko-Ho stretches.
You can find there Makko-Ho stretches here on You Tube.
I ve also made a special pdf, with my own creative interpretation of the Makko-Ho adding a lot more movement.

Musical score: Fun with the 50s

I m using an online yoga class from Sadie’s Rockstar Teaching training, and in this one she was playing jazzy music… and I desired to stay in style and use Madonna’s 50’s album;
I m Breathless, the soundtrack from Dick Tracy.

Be your own Yoga Star
Would you like to join my classes in Nijmegen?
You can find all info here. 
Or email me directly at s_beenackers@hotmail.com
Or check my You Tube and practice with my videos.

If you like to take the full course from Sadie herself you can buy Sadie’s Rockstar Teacher Training at Udemy or pay by donation to Sadie personally.

week 5/15: Big Magic

images (1)by Suzanne L. Beenackers

“I flirmly believe that we all need to find something to do in our lives that stops us from eating the couch”
Elizabeth Gilbert in Big Magic p.172

A few years ago, I gave a book called Parenting illustrated with crappy pictures to a friend. It was so appealing yet I couldn’t put my finger on it. Why was I giving this (in all honesty- hilariously funny book) instead of something eh…well, a little more polished. Something that would lift a young mother out of her daily grind.
But now I know why: because those crappy pictures were an authentic expression. And the fact that they were not polished, and that she was obviously clueless how to use a computer to draw, made it all the more endearing. It was her son who had told her they were “pretty crappy”. So this was book written by a woman so desperate to create, that she defied the judgement of her 4 year old. She still did it anyway.

The lost art of finding your magic 

Elizabeth Gilbert published a book last week Big Magic: creative living beyond fear
When we say “creative living” we obviously think of crafting things, writing things, musicianing things and maybe dancing things.
But behold!
This is a narrow definition of creativity. Liz gives two inspiring examples of two women living creative lives.
One is a woman who picked up ice-skating in her forties. Three times a week, before work she would go to the track and skate with a coach, or alone. She was making something of herself, and of her life, through ice skating!
Another woman started studying Mesopotamia (devour books, visit archaeological sites, talk to experts) in her 80’s, and now she’s in her 90’s and people visit her as an expert on Mesopotamia.

And there are a lot of people who find their creativity in doing yoga every morning, in running, in travelling: the possibilities are endless. But the need, Liz says, is universal.  Liz truly believes that we all have this force within us, and describes what will happen if you don’t do anything with it.

Doggy Style

A creative mind (and remember- that is most likely any human mind) is like having a border collie for a pet: you need to keep it busy or else it will cause you an outrageous amount of trouble. Like eating the couch, digging a  hole in the living room floor, or biting the mailman. Unless you spend sufficient time with your border collie mind, creating something, studying something, or taking an AM 10 mile run, your mind will cause havoc. It will turn aggressive and start to destroy things. First of all your own inner-peace.
I m still amazed how easily my mind can find one little tear, one tiny insecurity, only to then grab it, yank it, and keep yanking and pulling it until my  inner-peace, self-worth and general sense of well-being are effectively torn to bits!
Quite an accomplishment really.

But if I see my mind as this highly energetic dog, that just needs to be entertained, I understand why it starts to behave badly. And how to prevent it. If you work on a routine where your creative mind, your inner border collie, gets a good work-out, just see what a lovely pet it will make! 

more on Big Magic:
5 key lessons from Big Magic on Etsy
45 minute interview with Elizabeth Gilbert on Marie TV

week 5 – A New Dawn

For 15 weeks I’m teaching based on classes from Sadie Nardini. This week I m using one class from Sadie’s Rockstar Teacher Training, and two You Tube videos. Last month I taught about creating an bedtime ritual, and therefor this month I m exploring morning rituals. So that’s why I chose two morning yoga sequences.
In the first video Sadie does this yoga pose called happy baby (which I won’t explain, but trust me, the way it looks is key to getting the joke), and then says:
“Some call it happy Sadie.(…) Inappropriate!”
And that made me laugh so hard, it will keep bringing joy from now on, every time I do it.

Bad Girl Music



Which brings me to the music this month! I was creating (yes, in a hobby, happy, creative living way) a Madonna cd from her early 90’s work. However, a lot of really nice songs were way too explicit, or too upbeat, to be used in a yoga class. And even if I took those out, I still had 2,5 hours left. A yoga cd is about 70 minutes….
So what to do?
I decided I would make two 70 minute cd’s: one ligit, and one just for fun: The Bad Girl cd
And guess what?
By the time I was done I realized I was so ready to use the Bad Girl one, I wonder if the other one will ever get used ;)
I recreated both playlists on Spotify:
Madonna 90s Yoga Playlist 90s: Secret 
Madonna 90s Yoga Playlist: Bad Girl (explicit)

Become a Yoga Rockstar
Would you like to join my classes in Nijmegen?
You can find all info here. 
Or email me directly at s_beenackers@hotmail.com
Or check my You Tube and practice with my videos.

If you like to take the full course from Sadie herself you can buy Sadie’s Rockstar Teacher Training at Udemy or pay by donation to Sadie personally.

week 3 + 4 /15: Bedtime Stories

Bedtime Madonna-Bedtime_Stories-Interior_Frontalby Suzanne L. Beenackers

I have a hefty book next to my bed, and every night before sleeping I read the left page, and study the photo at the right. It’s a new practice, just a few weeks old, but I ve grown attached to it. It reminds me of children’s stories, something to feed your mind with, a last thought before you go to sleep.
My book is Madonna – Michelle Morgan (2015)
But maybe you would prefer a meditation book or an affirmation book.

Don’t take the heat to the bedroom

Ever since the bible and evening prayer disappeared (at least in the Netherlands) our bedrooms have been fertile grounds for enough drama and impulses to keep an elephant awake. If (despite this) you do fall sound asleep, then by all means, keep doing what you’re doing.  I remember a few weeks ago I tried to upgrade my nighttime routine with yoga, instead of my usual ritual of doing the dishes. Immediately I lay awake for hours. Stick with what’s working.
But if you suffer from insomnia pay more attention to how you fall asleep/ eliminate anything that stimulates your brain. I know sleeping experts always go pretty hard on the blue light from screens, so if you re sensitive to that you may want to take it easy on using your tv/ smartphone etc. There is another reason why  your smartphone could be a problem: if you re having heated conversations. Whether with your family, or on social media: any form of argument is best prevented all together, but at least set boundaries as to when you engage. One of the reasons I don’t like tv soaps is that people just keep reacting, responding, interacting. If you act like a character from a soap your stress levels will sky rocket you because you’re sucking in all the drama stories of everyone around you.

Good Story telling

A little word on “Stories”. I ve always resisted the demonizing of how “spiritual people” encourage others to stop believing in their “stories”. Maybe you re not familiar with it, but the conversation would go something like this (don’t read this before bedtime, you will get worked up about it):
“I am a yoga teacher.”
“No that is just a story. That is not who you truly are.”
“I am a radiant being of light and love.”
“Yes you are.”
*insert green puking emoticon*
And when doing Sadie’s Rockstar teacher training I realized WHY am I totally anti the demonizing of story telling, and defining ourselves by the roles we play:
Because Sadie explains it is the QUALITY of the story that matters!
If you tell yourself GOOD stories, or as Sadie calls them- empowering stories, if you know a way to think about life as an adventure, and find growth in anything “bad” happening to you, then those are great stories!
I am a patient – is a disempowering story
My illness is my teacher – is an empowering story
I can’t hold a normal job – is a disempowering story
I am a yoga teacher – is an empowering story
I don’t like how I look – is a disempowering story
I honor my body – is an empowering story
Reading something before bed that affirms your own good stories, or watch an inspiring You Tube video for self growth, could be an effective way to keep recreating and rewriting your own life.


Cocoon tent

Your last thoughts before you fall asleep

You turn the light off, snuggle under the blankets. You close your eyes. Now where are you? Do you realize you can visualize sleeping anywhere you want?
In nature near a river, taking away your old thoughts and emotions you no longer need.
You can sleep in the most expensive hotel room.
In a cabin on sticks, hovering over the beach and the sea.

My visualizations for my perfect sleeping spot have been so powerful that I really have the clean white bedroom I’ve always wanted. Without closing my eyes.
That’s probably why I always sleep like a baby.
As long as I don’t do yoga before bedtime anyway ;)

week 3 + 4 – monthly M Yoga pdf’s

For 15 weeks I’m teaching based on classes from Sadie Nardini.
These two weeks I ve processed the first two weeks to September’s M Yoga pdf’s:
M Yoga #3: Ray of Light
M Yoga #4: Bedtime Stories
Or check my You Tube and practice with my videos.

If you like to take the full course(s) you can buy Sadie’s Rockstar Teacher Training and Yoga for Insomnia at Udemy or pay by donation to Sadie personally.

Become a Yoga Rockstar
Would you like to join my classes in Nijmegen?
You can find all info here. 
Or email me directly at s_beenackers@hotmail.com

week 4/7: Shiva Rea to the Rescue

041_diapers_V2by Suzanne L. Beenackers

If you take my classes you know what I do when I have a cold: I teach with the cd Yoga Sanctuary from Shiva Rea. If you know me better you even know why I have a cold: because I ve gone too vigorously on the oil pulling, usually in an attempt to cure some gum issues.
A recent (as in after I got sick…) Google search found that although oil pulling, swishing the mouth with coconut oil, can prevent gum disease it’s actually advised against if you are already suffering from it. And you run the risk of getting sick, like I do about twice a year. So then you have gum issues AND you re sick.
That’s when as a yoga teacher, Shiva Rea comes to the rescue.

When to call in sick?

First of all I don’t advocate a keep-going-till-you-drop policy in anyone’s work. Using medicine to repress signs of the flu in order to go to work is asking for trouble. There is a saying: if you don’t make time for your heath, you will have to make time for your illness. So just imagine what will happen if you don’t make time for your small illnesses… So no. If you’re sick you should stay home.

Then there’s the mental stuff. When are you unfit to do your work? This would depend on your work I guess, and as a yoga teacher I don’t feel comfortable teaching if I have too much other stuff going on in my life. Like when I had to say goodbye to my cat, I took the week off. There are teachers who can use, what they call “raw” energy” in their teachings, but I m not like that.

But what about a common cold? What if you feel alright, but you’re just snotty or your throat aches? That’s when (like most people) I’m usually perfectly fine going to work (in the best of spirits) but I do need some help with the teaching itself. So I use Shiva Rea.

Pink elephants

With 12 years of teaching experience I thought I had the sickness issue nailed. Until yesterday. I was going to teach using the cd, but contrary to previous colds, the coughing phase was exceptionally violent and unpredictable this time. When my second group came in, I was still mentally recovering from having disturbed the previous class several times.
“I feel totally insecure about this!”
Then one student said that I should not focus on not wanting to cough because it was like with the pink elephants; if you don’t want to think about it, you think about it.
And your body is painfully open to suggestion. She told me she used to inspect children for lice, and every time she found them she would get itchy herself.
So I took her advice to heart. Every time I felt a cough coming up I thought of lice. Pink lice. And my student inspecting the kids if they had caught any pink elephants.
That helped.

Yoga Sanctuaryweek 4 – Yoga with Shiva

For seven weeks I m teaching from Shiva Rea. This is the fourth week, and I’m using the audio cd Yoga Sanctuary instead of teaching a series inspired by a dvd.

Yesterday I had to teach both classes with the cd, but I m gradually getting better, and learning more about how I can teach, so my plan for the rest of this week is:
Tuesday 19.00 + Thursday 19.00 : teach with cd
Tuesday 20.30 + Thursday 20.30 : may teach live if earlier class went okay.
Friday 10.30: still to be decided

Click here for the home yoga pdf for Yoga Sanctuary

week 3/7: Birthday twenty-four seven


Cover for my ’15-’16 calendar, from the gift wrapping paper and a birthday card.

by Suzanne L. Beenackers 

I used to regret having my birthday in summer. School was closed and I never had a party on the actual date since everybody was away on holiday. I did spend several anniversaries abroad, resulting in exotic gifts from my family such as a shirt with a Spanish speaking Snoopy.

After decades of working around the fact that my Birthday was in a social Bermuda Triangle I finally nailed it this year! Living in Nijmegen, my birthday is always somewhere around the Vierdaagse week: a four day walking march and week long party in the city with 1.5 million visitors. It peaks at Friday which was my birthday.

I love going out, but I don’t do cramped up squares with bands giving gigs. I don’t do singing along with Dutch music on beer drenched pavements. I don’t do dancing, standing, puking, or other levels of getting drunk. I like things civilized and in good company, and with a chair under my 43 year old butt. Which basically meant I had little to do in the Vierdaagse week.
20150724_111221 outtakeUntil this year: I had seven birthday nights out, one-on-one, seeing seven dear friends. And on Friday my family threw me a private party with presents in pink. I brought cake. We went to the Vierdaagse finish and I bought and gave out 40 gladiolus to 40 hikers on their last 5 kilometers, who looked like they needed it, deserved it, or like they were lost in a social Bermuda Triangle.

It was the best birthday of my life and I already look forward to next year. Just 51 weeks more to go.


week 3 – Yoga with Shiva

For seven weeks I m teaching from Shiva Rea. This is the third week, where I have made two flows: Backbends & Armbalances
Solar Flow page 1 & page 2
Lunar Flow
These pdf’s are a stand alone tool – since not everybody will have the dvd, and because the practices on You Tube are often taken down.
In June someone uploaded the dvd to You Tube, so at the risk of the videos/ links having been taken down again, here’s the whole playlist I used: DVD Yoga Shakti by Shiva Rea
Circle the Heart
Dancing Warrior 2
Dancing Warrior 3
Core abs incl 4 arm balances.
Standing Pose Flow 2 only voice over, no music. Includes several highly advanced arm balances
Lunge Backbend Preparation
Backbend Flow 1
Backbend Flow 2 Upward bow and Wheel
Long relaxation 

I’m using music Shakti Rhythms the soundtrack from the dvd.

Would you like to join my yoga classes in Nijmegen? Email me for your first class:
You can find all info here.  


week 2/7: The solution to any problem.

51bUxfPAGhL._UY250_by Suzanne L. Beenackers

Last week I was sharing a wine (well, we both had our own glass) and a brownie (after I promised the brownies there are so big, even I don’t get food aggressive) with one of my students, Hilke, who I strongly support of becoming a yoga teacher.
She’s starting out as a therapist and has this sweet earthy energy.
“I want people to fall in love with yoga,” Hilke said. “That’s my strongest motivation to teach.”
I nearly choked on my butter sugar combo known as brownie, when I heard that.
For a blink of a second I identified with that role. With the idea of having newbies come over for class who still resist the idea of yoga, and me being the good fairy godmother to convert them to the right path. I’m always polite and respectful to new students, but it’s like a first date: we’re really just getting acquainted. Hilke doesn’t have such reservations.
“I know you want to win their hearts,” I said. “I ll send them to you.”

“When any of us tempt to operate outside of our own natural movement, our lives go out of balance and things start to go wrong.”
It’s just my Nature, Carol Tuttle page 171

If you would study yoga teachers and other humans, but it works great on pets, flowers, houses, anything, you can recognize four different types, depending on their dominant energies (we all have all four).
Types 1’s are light, funny, childlike, erratic, and switch between connection and disconnection.
Types 2 are loving, peaceful, detailed, connected.
Types 3 are dynamic, swift, entrepreneurial.
Types 4 are still, bold and methodical.

Carol Tuttle gives a great example: Imagine 40 people having to move to the West Coast. The Type 1’s would be all excited about the adventure at hand, and they would be in the best of spirits all along the way. Change and insecurity is where they can feel right at home. Type 2 would start planning what they’d need on the road, what to pack, what is required the first week you’re there. Type 3 would start with when they arrive and then plan their timeline backwards, focusing on the broad picture and figuring out details along the way. Type 4 would rethink the whole move, and would then decide they’re not going. Unless you put a knife to their throat; then they’ll consider it.

How we fight

If your family is experiencing conflict lately, don’t go to the root of the problem. Go to the root of the energy. Whose nature is not being honored?
It’s just my Nature, Carol Tuttle page 174

All my life I have had this aversion to fighting, quarrels and even heated discussions. If people are forced to work with each other, or if you’re a minor dependent on your parents, I can forgive you. But if you are voluntarily in a relationship (with me) then I will not allow for any disturbance of the peace. From my perspective you’re in or you’re out, and once you’re in fighting becomes as mentally disturbed as saying negative things to your mirror image.

Now I could clearly see that roughly everybody else disagrees with me on that. Especially my parents. I remember one incident where we had to go on a long, hot road trip, and I knew they would quarrel about the road and reading the map, so I did it for them. I read the map, and listened to the radio for traffic jams, and for the first time we reached this destination effortlessly. Yet when we arrived, they started to fight about on which side of the street we should be walking! That must have been the day when I gave up on solving other people’s problems.

Now that I know about Carol’s energy profiling system it all makes sense now: I’m a Type 4, and therefor value stillness above all else. Type 4’s will polarize, and not to argue about what is black or white, but to create order and draw a very clear line that will prevent people from coming too close. When I was halfway in my twenties, on a city trip with my parents and sister, my father was being absolutely impossible again. Ironically, I can now see that he only behaved this way when my Type 2 mother was around. When him and me were alone on holidays we had the best of times! Anyway, I didn’t know that then, I just knew that after 25 years of dealing with his moods I was done being a victim, and being powerless in these kinds of family situations. I said to him (POLARIZING the situation): “We are now going to walk to the museum. And if you are not in better spirits when we get there, I m taking a train home today.”
My father walked in silence, and when we got there any sign of his moodiness had vanished completely!
My behavior was a textbook example of how a Type 4 deals with conflict: they will not negotiate and instead be very clear in their demands, the time frame and the consequences.
So that stillness can return.


Type 1 Marilyn Monroe

A type 1 is also not very likely to fight you. First of all, a type 1 is the most adaptable of all types! If you change plans, or want to reschedule, or anything like that: expect zero problems with a type 1. If you do bug them (for example because you want them to commit to something!) they’ll most likely snap, and DISCONNECT. But they’ll come back….. unlike the Type 4- if they leave, they leave- a Type 1 will be able to forget soon and come back and may even apologize for responding so rude and being difficult.
Type 1’s are unsuitable for arguments because the heaviness of the drama will burden them. Type 1’s have the highest adaptability. Type 1’s adaptable carefree spirit may actually survive something as traumatic as a series of foster homes, but pressing a Type 1 for a stern opinion, a straight line, or a clear statement is like asking a butterfly to lift a roadblock.

A type 2 will not fight you either. Which, initially, only makes things worse…. because they will not speak! Just worry and be offended in silence. Type 2’s are very attached to their planning, to details, to being connected, and to how everybody is doing. And yet, if they are provoked their passive aggressive silence will be force to be reckoned with!
So like I said: they’re not the ones initiating conflict, but because they can’t respond spontaneously, they will worsen the conflict because 1. the other party will feel uneasy with the silence and the victim role the Type 2 plays and 2. because the other party will be angry at the type 2 for not expressing what they want!
That’s because they really, really can’t….
But then there is the good news: a Type 2 will be more motivated then anyone else to restore the peace. Once you get them out of their shell, they will gladly talk with you in detail about everything! Their emotions, what it was like to be angry, what they thought of certain things. Once the danger is gone, the gateways to their hearts are open again, love pours out, and they’ll connect, connect, connect. Fighting with a two is a guaranteed slamming doors-free experience!

The type 3, like Obama and Oprah, they’re about transformation and creation! My father was a type 3 *) We fully acknowledge the creative force he was, and the tremendous impact he had; not just on our lives but on students and his work field around the world. Yet at the same time we realize how harmonious our remaining family has lived since then. Type 3’s are the only ones who do not naturally shy away from the chaotic energy conflict creates. And not only can they stand the heat, but they will throw logs in the fire as well….making things (from the perspective of the other types) worse. Yet disagreement and working with opposition is inherent to the nature of a type 3. As is the power to save the planet and everybody on it. And they certainly never, ever give up on solving other people’s problems.
*) I’m still working on analyzing the relationship I had with him, with this system. I think this post may have been premature on this point, and that he may have been a 4. For the story about my role in the family this makes no difference, but for those who knew my father, it may be confusing if I indeed typed him wrong. 

Why I endorse this system 

“I feel I was let out of a prision, a prison I didn’t know I was in all those years.”
testimony on the liberating effect of knowing your type, page 175

Type 2 Russel Crowe

Type 2 Russell Crowe

As a solitary writer/ yoga teacher mostly minding my own business, and always trying very hard not to care too much about saving other people, I didn’t have the intention to write this post. Just in case you missed it, I already wrote about energy profiling one week ago, so I figured I had done my share:
If this was something you were interested in, you now had a starting point.
And if you dismissed it or resisted, then just keep doing that.

But as I kept developing myself through this system, I just got more enthusiastic every day! And then, in addition to the free online course, and her you tube channel I clicked the crap out of, and Carol’s blog that is even better than those other two tools combined, finally my book arrived!
Carol Tuttle – It’s Just My Nature
Her online presence is currently focused on Dressing Your Truth, about how to make your clothes an affirmation of who you truly are, but this book focuses on the broader picture. Because if you GET energy profiling, you can solve anything with it.
That’s not clickable, that’s me yelling at you ;)
Once you know your own dominant energy you know what you crave for, what your strength is, how to appreciate your parents and solve all your problems.
You ll even know what to wear! I ll include the wardrobe guidelines, even though I find it a bit cheesy. But the connection to Dressing Your Truth is also what makes energy profiling more fun (and more effective!) than deadly serious personal development tools.

Here are the four types; their talent, what they need, “prescribed” choice of wardrobe, and if/ why I think you will benefit from this system, based on certain problems you might experience:

Type 1 The Brightest Star of All
Brings lightness, but needs freedom.
Wardrobe: Bright coloring with at least one item that would also look great on a 6 year old.
Type 1’s can benefit from knowing their type because they have a precious childlike, funny quality, that can easily be judged as immature. In relationships Type 1’s will experience two major problems: 1. They will have a natural tendency to alternate between disconnect/ connect. This will drive all other types absolutely insane, and not knowing their own nature, it may even drive themselves crazy. 2. Their lighthearted nature makes them easily dominated by the other types, who will think of themselves as more serious and reliable. A parent-child like relationship.
The most famous Type 1 celebrity is no doubt Marilyn Monroe, and almost all male and female comedy actors are also Type 1’s. Especially for a Type 1, knowing who you truly are, and what your dominant energy is, can be the difference between the asylum and a spirit so bright the whole world will love you.

Type 2 Angelina Jolie and The Dalai Lama
Brings peace, but needs connection and detail.
Wardrobe: Subdued colors, flowing lines, comfortable texture
So from the robe of the Dalai Lama, only the color is a bit off ;)
For Type 2’s I ‘m going to make a distinct difference between men and women.
Type 2 women: They can read all this, and maybe they like it, but in general, women who are soft, kind, with a keen eye for detail and able to plan for their household home cooked meals, sweet putting-to-bed rituals, have a smile for everybody, and connect with the whole neighborhood? In general? They’re good to go!
Type 2 women are not in conflict with anyone, and especially not with what’s praised in Western society. So I don’t think I would recommend that they HAVE TO read this book. You don’t.
There are however a lot of female Type 2 wanna be’s, recognizable by being internally torn apart and thoroughly unhappy with their role. They should read anything they can about energy profiling.
Type 2 men? Different story. Because unless you’re the Dalai Lama (or Richard Gere, but that’s kind of the same thing) your Type 2 maleness is going to “collide” (as far as such a subtle flowing energy can clash anyway) with what is expected of you.
So if you are reading this, and this might be about you: do the work. Start doing energy profiling to understand your true nature. And labeling it male or female is a cultural thing. Nature doesn’t think that way. Richard Gere, Hugh Grant, Russell Crowe (!!), Ryan Reynolds. That’s how diverse Type 2 males can be. And I ll let you in on a secret: your type 2 maleness makes you highly attractive to Type 3 and Type 4 women, because we think you’re sweet and want to go to bed with you. Well I do anyway.

Type 3 Madonna

Type 3 Madonna

Type 3 Madonna and Obama
brings transformation, but needs direction and LOTS OF space to move.
Wardrobe: Layered, textured, all animal prints other than zebra
If you’re Type 3 and you’re still reading this, you’re probably waiting (in vain) for bullet points, the 2 A4 sheets of HOW TO CHANGE YOUR LIFE IN 5 EASY STEPS or other shortcuts that will allow you to squeeze in energy profiling with training for your triathlon, watching over your 9 children, your Masters study, and management of your own company.
Again this is a Type where I ll distinguish between men and women.
For Type 3 men (Brad Pitt and Obama can stop reading) energy profiling may have little to add. If you re a male living an expression of this energy you fit right into Western society.
For a woman, it might depend on the generation or your upbringing. Carol Tuttle herself had a religious upbringing where Type 2 and 1 energy of women were favored. This meant she felt her rougher, richer beauty, and her powerful energy were always out of place. Energy profiling is her redeeming herself, and all other Type 3 women, who have no idea what to do with so much energy.
If you recognize yourself in the idea of being too much, overbearing, and even unattractive, then energy profiling is just what the doctor ordered.

Meanwhile, I (bold and striking Type 4) was told by Carol in several videos, I should stop analyzing so much! lol Okay, so this is my last blogpost on the subject. And I admit it: yes Carol. I read the entire blog, book, and did the course. But now I GET it ;)
So Type 4:

Type 4: Bold and Striking
Brings stability but needs stillness or structure.
Wardrobe: Bold colors, straight lines, high contrast, smooth structure
This is a no-brainer: If you’re a Type 4 then YES read energy profiling. You’re the most reflective and analytical of the four types, you can’t stand not understanding something about yourself or a situation, and you (even you) might be unaware of some very peculiar yet dominant features in your personality. Like why you never drive with rock music on. Like why you hate being in groups slash not choosing your own company, when everybody else seems to be fine with this.
There was a time when companies would have group trainings for teambuilding. Do they still do that? I left corporate life 14 years back. Either way; Type 4’s will find the idea of forced and prescribed interaction absolutely revolting. Energy profiling will explain why this is. And why you’re so terribly picky. And bold. And opinionated. And private.
And sexy as hell.
Didn’t say that.

Energy Therapy as solution to anything

I hope that Carol Tuttle will develop Energy Profiling in the direction of training therapists and life coaches. I visited a Louise Hay therapist in the 90’s and agreeing on the system you want your professional to use, agreeing on your view of the world, is so powerful! I m no therapist, but I can imagine you can skip the first 10 sessions if you only accept clients who agree with you on the system, or even if your clients know what to expect. Type 4 clients anyway ;)
Professionals reading this post, especially the ones in the areas of coaching, color coding, personal development and maybe psychology, may already be interested in energy profiling and in particular the theoretical background. Carol explains the framework in the final chapter of her book It’s Just My Nature. So yes, it’s linked to tons of other stuff and theories, that you may have encountered during your work or studies.

Type 4 Johnny Depp

Type 4 Johnny Depp

My Encore: Sex and Profiling

This is my personal contribution to profiling. Carol Tuttle and her team are Christians and maybe that is why I have not been able to find any reference to sex (if any) in other settings than marriage, let alone next to your marriage! Oh dear…. ;)
But I think I can make a pretty good guess how the four different types would function in those areas! And this might be where you recognize yourself, right?

Sex Type 1: The Butterfly

OH there we go! What do you think?! Here’s the Type that has developed the easy switch between connection and disconnection into an art form! So if you’re talking one night stands and casual encounters, here’s the person who’ll be able to tell you all about it (they’ll kill me for saying this but okay). They’re not all like this: some may be too easily distracted, to ever let it come to sex. Type 1’s have a tendency to not take responsibility for their actions, and rationalize WHY they were right, when in fact their behavior was irresponsible. This is not me, this is the book, page 57-58. This will express for example as saying: “I don’t want you to get hurt.” When in fact this means: “I m not taking responsibility when things don’t work out.”
When it comes to sex, Type 1 is really anything goes, as long as it’s playful and light.

Sex Type 2: Everybody’s dream (well mine anyway)
Ooooohhh this is equally good right? We have a soft sweet emotional creature making soft sweet emotional love to you. Men just LOVE that in women (although they could see it as too clingy….) and Type 3 and 4 women will absolutely go for this in their guy. There’s a chance Type 2’s will have multiple partners or an adventurous period, but still: count on breakfasts in bed, sweet text messages, and every encounter to be the potential beginning of a relationship. If they don’t feel a connection, a Type 2 will not be going all the way with you.

Sex Type 3: The Action Hero
Oh dear! The heat is now definitely ON! Anything adventurous, anyone that can be conquered, any scenario with lots of action, and here’s the person to see. They have tons of energy, so expect to stay up all night. Out of all the types I would say this Type, along with Type 1’s, are the ones most likely to stray from the path and to cheat….. we all can of course. But Type 1 and Type 3 are the two types that can deal with movement, energy flowing, and disconnection/ switching between “situations”.
They’re the least likely to get bored with sex. I think they’d say: “Even if the sex is bad, it’s still pretty good.”
Which brings us to the type who will never say that….

Sex Type 4: 50 Shades of Black and White
Here it’s all or nothing! These are people who can go a year without sex for reasons such as: it doesn’t fit their agenda, which they like orderly and compartmentalized. Sex would be categorized as “leisure”, and spontaneous encounters are absolutely out of the question. If a four would have random sex, they would box that in their head as a cut-off series of experiences and never want to talk to those people again.
A sexual relationship like power play from 50 Shades is more the type of adventure a Type 4 would enjoy! It has boundaries, rules and a clear structure. At the risk of scaring you away: Also paid sex could appeal to them simply because of the clarity of the agreement. Type 4’s are deeply emotional, and that is precisely the reason any sex outside of a setting where those emotions are appropriate (or invited in…) needs to be a controlled experience.
I m totally going overboard with what I m telling you now: but from all the types, type 4 will have the hardest time keeping their sex life exciting. They are so still, and structured, things die out pretty soon. Anyone who has seen 50 Shades of Grey: a playroom that big, and so well stocked, and fantasies so profoundly over the top, that’s pretty much how much it will take to get a four interested in sex again. So best to prevent they drop the ball, and be sure to keep your Type 4 partner moving. If you give him or her the upper hand, they ll stop having sex.
In which case you may have to buy them a playroom.

If you would like to know more you can check these links:
Carol’s Blog including a pop up link to the free course and posts with all her videos
– the free beauty profiling course LINK TO SIGN UP
– check out her you tube channel
– buy her book

week 2 – Yoga with Shiva

For seven weeks I m teaching from two dvd’s of Shiva Rea. This is second first week, where I have made two flows:
Solar Flow – Arm Balances
Lunar Flow – Lunar Flow & Pranayama 
These pdf’s are a stand alone tool – since not everybody will have the dvd, and because the practices on You Tube are often taken down.
In June someone uploaded the dvd to You Tube, so at the risk of the videos/ links having been taken down again, here’s the whole playlist I used: DVD Yoga Shakti by Shiva Rea
Solar Meditation and Pranayama (Om 3)
Prana Yoga (Om 4) sound of this video doesn’t work properly
Surya Namaskar A & B 
Dancing Warrior 4 
Ha Kriya
Standing Pose Flow
Shoulder Openers
So Ham meditation

I’m using music from Abel Korzeniowski from W.E. and A Single Man.
You can check this month’s Playlist on Spotify 

Would you like to join my yoga classes in Nijmegen? Email me for your first class:
You can find all info here.